In the comments of my post yesterday, Shari mentioned reflections being good and how the end of the year seemed to be the time when we reflect. After yesterday's post and on top of not feeling well, I was emotionally and mentally feeling out of sorts and disconnected. In a way it was good, though. I started to notice things that I normally don't pay much attention to. Like the reflection in my side mirror when I was stopped in traffic and it all seemed to connect - reflecting on the past year and the reflection in the side mirror of what was already behind me. I was literally looking at the past, of where I had been, while mentally my inner sight was doing the same.
It made me really take stock, as I sat in my truck, in the rain. I realized that no one is spinning my wheels but me, no one is stopping me from doing anything but me and no one is going to just hand me what I want...I don't have to wait for the new year to start these things!
So, since I wasn't feeling well, I left work early (which is when my revelation came about). I went home and made curtains and finished a quilt top that is a Christmas gift (photos to come after the Giftee opens the gift), then sat in a chair and napped for a bit. It made me feel mentally, emotionally and physically recharged. I had my moment of Zen while using my sewing machine and naps always make me feel better.
I'm ready to pay attention to my surroundings, to act on the whims that I have...like taking a road trip or sitting in that bookstore or going out to a pub for a beer...anything that isn't sitting around at home watching tv or feeling like things have stalled!